For years I drifted, allowing life to happen to me, instead of taking the initiative to live life. I had plenty of dreams of where I would be in life by the age of 35, but at 37, I was nowhere near where I thought I would be. I couldn’t understand why things weren’t working out and why I wasn’t further along than I was. I was doing everything I was supposed to do as a believer- reading my Bible, praying, attending church, serving. I won’t say that I was perfect at it because there were seasons in my life when I was more consistent in some of these areas than others, but nonetheless I was doing what I was taught to do, so in my mind I should have had everything that I wanted.
When things weren’t happening for me the way I thought they should, I turned my anger towards God. One day, when I was in full meltdown mode, I’m talking crocodile tears, wailing, and tissues flying as my pity party decorations, I asked God, “Why have you forsaken me? Why am I still wandering and not “there already” in life?” When I finally calmed down enough to hear God respond he said, “First of all, stop being dramatic. Second, are you done feeling sorry for yourself because where you are right now has been your choice.” All I could do was sit and be quiet. What God proceeded to reveal to me is that I had an unwillingness to surrender, followed by a lack of intention, faith, and action.
Proverbs 14:12 says, “there is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death.” In that moment that God began to speak to me, I realized I didn’t know much of anything when compared to what I thought I knew. And, He reminded me that He had a plan for me that was good and full of hope. So, I surrendered my ideas and beliefs and allowed God to teach me the following lesson:
- Intention is making a firm decision; anything other than a firm decision on what you want to do or accomplish is just a wish
- Faith is believing that your intention will produce visible fruit
- Action is physically walking in your faith
I had always heard James 2:11, “Faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead,” but this time around the lesson affected me differently. I was convicted on how I had been living in disobedience to what God had been instructing me to do. My own understanding kept me in a place of stagnation and confusion, and my only way out was through exchanging my plans and way of execution for those of God’s. I won’t say that surrendering my plans to God has been easy, but surrendering with this lesson in mind has allowed me to live in the moment where I experience God and take a more active role in my own life. Maybe you have struggled with the same issues of just allowing life to happen, if so I encourage you to surrender your choice and then follow the three action steps to walk in God’s purpose for your life.